I decided to document not only my "writable" feelings on what is happening, but also my emotional status through a lens. Because even though I am 2,000 miles away...it still effects each and every day here on out. Today she talked of how another doctor agreed on what the right treatment for this is....
Well suprise! She still has it... and Chemo is still the choice of venom.
She sounds so cheerful on the phone, so sure of herself and the cards played. While in true 20 year old mind-set...I refuse to believe the reality, and so I layed my head back onto the grass, cryed behind my sunglasses and slept. Because it was all I could do. It's all I can do. I can't fix it...I can't stop, I can only wait.
"I'm that single little cloud
on a sunny day
just floatin along
ruining the perfect blue skies."
(new song I am working on)
I'm all Shades of Purple right now.
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