Katy Kettles Dreams Wide Awake

I started reading this book called "Wide Awake" by Erwin McManus (who also happens to be the pastor of the church I got to). This was a good book to pick up because the first thing it points out is a person's dreams. I then had to ask myself a good question - "Katy, what is your dream and are you doing everything in your power to accomplish that dream so that way you wont be just another unfullfilled person".

Well, my dream now is a little different. People have now seen me been a model for Torrid...thats great and it's a cool thing to say about myself, but it's merely just a stepping stone for me. People have seen me be a counselor, that was great and I loved being there for my campers, but that to me (as well) was merely a stepping stone to show myself that a leader is inside of me. A long time ago people saw me act on a stage, all these things add up. Also on occassion you may have been one of the rare to see me sing solo...that too also adds up in this whole dream.

My dream is simply to be known, so that way I can have an impact on the world. I don't mean fame or fortune, but known for the kind of art I decide to color this world with in that moment. In my opinion God has blessed me with many challenging life stories and from these I choose to channel them in either a painting, a short story/poem, a photograph, a song or even acting in a film or play that I feel has something that would speak to an individual.

I want to make an impact, a dent in this world. How ever which way God sends me to do that...thats his decision. After a while I just learned I can't fight his winds...I fall over too easily so I might as well go with it.

The way I get to this end goal is by (as Erwin calls it) being the explorer. I am always going out on auditions, talking with photographers, painting pictures, and writing. Doing all the things I am suppossed to be doing. I seek the opportunitys that are just waiting for me. Sometimes they come from the most random of places, but the key point is that I always have an opportunity to grow. Right now for example I am working on a painting for Erwin's church that will be a part of their "Hope In The City" gallary and will be auctioned off. Pretty cool.

Sometimes I know I come off as a free-spirit and about 99% of the time I like knowing whats not going to happen next...I am kind of a thrill seeker. (Let's remember I moved to a city without even seeing it first and my main reason was because I was cold - yeah) But this is pretty awesome, because for once i actually had to pause and think about what all these mediums I work with...what goal am I actually going forth to....one that makes all the zany things I do or say make sense.

God makes sense, Making an impact on this world through God's hand on me makes even more sense.

I like knowing. Knowing is powerful.

Here's a few passages from Erwins book that I like,

"Life is not a color by the lines project; life is a work of art.you have to keep mixing colors, creating new blends,and seeing things in fresh ways.You must be willing to get paint ALL OVER YOU.Life is about growth.Growth demands change.Change requires humility.Sometimes you need to bring change;sometimes you need to be changed."


"If your going to create the life of your dreams, you're going to need to dream big so you can live big. Your life will never become what you do not dare to imagine. You will not become everything you dream of, but you'll never become anything you don't dream of."

" I have come to a place where I simply think of every human being as pre-great. Whether in poverty or wealth, whether educated formally or informally, whether from the Americas or Africa or Austrailia, I have found the same result -- People are the most underused and undervalued resource on this planet. Earth's unlimited resource is the gifts, talent, passion, imagination, and ingenuity or it's citizens."

: ) I Dream Wide Awake. Do you?