Blue Eyes

Family is valued
Christian Morals are played
Church is on sundays
relatives; live in town
not seperated
not parted
with miles inbetween
but I'm changing
these streets are getting thin
can't find a place to walk
can't find where I fit in
to this town I am nothing more
than a woman fighting to live
California's where I am going Pa
Going to find myself a home

Pa, you and I
we see the world in blue
captured in our sight
we have our own point of view's
I didn't mean to leave you
I didn't mean to go
but I got dreams that couldn't last
within the great lakes shores
Ich Liebe dich, Pa
But I gotta paint my own walls
have to make a name of my own

Losing it in Winter's Breath

call on me
call on me
when its convienant
spill to me
spill to me
when suddenly we're friends
look at me
look at me
when you need some lovin
but hunny
but hunny
when will we be more
when will we be more

because walks in the park
are merely just wasted efforts
snapshots of me smiling
are nothing more than
made-up candid moments
funny times
funny times
snow layered on ice
is what we are
snow layered on ice
nothing more than unstable ground
that will melt before
spring comes with it's flings
so

call on me
call on me
when it's convienant
spill to me
spill to me
when suddenly we're friends
look at me
look at me
when you need some lovin
but hunny
but hunny
when will we be more
when will we be more

Pictures @ Home

Welcome Home - There is snow! One foot of lovin'!!!

It's so good sometimes to be home, hang out with loved ones and have some fun around the tree. OH and get great Christmas cards in the mail...my favorite!

Sleigh Ride...Take me Home (country roads, to the place, I belong)

I would be lying if I said I didn't miss it
the snow I mean
It's hard to feel the Christmas joy sometimes
without the normal traditions
Grandma Becky's obnoxious lights
(electricity bills sky rocketing)
Mom putting the toy ornaments on the tree
Grandma Dee's christmas cookies
Grandpa snoring...because it's the same routine every year
snowflakes falling and implanting themselves into my outfit
snowball fights with friends
snowmobiling....and knowing Grandma Becky will always out run me
The Gathering...I walk in and everybody knows my name..it's fabulous!
The diner...(hey remember when I ate that sundae hands free? what a mess eh!)
Buddie's Nacho's....Aaron...all I am saying is when I am home I better be getting some damn nacho's and gaining 50 lbs my friend.
I missed Silver Bells in the City!
How could I ever forget my yearly tradition of watching the cata bus dressed up like a caterpillar. Or the tree lighting in front of the capital (fireworks...hmmm)
It's crazy
Also it's caramel cider time at Biggby!
that is the best season!!!
it only lasts for 5 months out of the year!

and then there is my brother
my sweet...loveable...goofball of a brother
every year he has to give me bunny ears in the family photo
every year he still opens his gifts as if he was 5 years old
he still wakes everyone up at 5 am in the morning
(he's also two years older then me)
still jumps on my bed until I wake up
.....but I still love him cause he's my older brother.
Even if it sometimes is a tad bit annoying.


I just can't wait to fly home and spend time with my loved ones.
Just 6 more days Lansing, MI. and don't worry L.A, I'll be back. ; )

Parents of the Like

barges...flickering bright
singing me to sleep
tuning into a baby's dream
saling the ocean blue
Mother holds her darling daughter
but where is her only father
flying
Paris he's bound
going to go find his precious girl
a porcelain doll
so he says
so he says
little girl wonders
stays up late
waiting
wishing on a star
that daddy isn't too far
mother holds tight
holds her hand
trying to make everything fine
stormy weather
make it hard to bare
little girl watches
as the clouds fill with hate
daddys flying in a bitter winds
what happens then
what happens then

shake it off
gotta fight the feeling
neglectful actions
make my head spinning
gotts understand
what made this right
little girl opens her eyes
finds the world in a different light
suprise
be like Puss in Boots
stand your ground
suprise
little blue eyes
suprise

starboard is green
little girl sings
port is flashing red
praying at the foot of her bed
Mother watches her earthly angel
but where is her only father
flying
today it's L.A
going to tell his precious girl
about the city on wings
so he says
so he says
little girl dances
doesn't stop
twirling
tapping on
the basement floor
gets the troubles out of her head
mother watches
gets a glimpse
of her child in ten years
long hours
many dissapointments
she's strong
going on
as the years pass by
Daddy watches from the side lines
what happens then
what happens then

I'm Gone

It was hazy
listening to your mouth move
and it was crazy
how you rationalized your actions
making it seem fine
making it seem okay
that I had to waste some years
on your indecisive mind
but now you think you got your answer
but now that you have it I am not here

I'm gone
moving on
pushing onward
touching the sun
but unlike your folly friend
I wont melt back to you again
I'm gone
moving onward
I'm gone

It was silly
thinking you could grow up
It was pathetic
dreaming of the future
making it seem great
making it seem perfect
that I could live that happily ever after
that you don't believe
and now you changed your path
and now you think it leads to me, but

I'm Gone
moving on
pushing onward
touching the sun
but unlike your folly friend
I wont melt back to you again
I'm gone
moving onward
I'm gone